April 23/17
The end is here. The first empty book is now full. This is the last entry in this series of random thoughts and observations. The start of this journey was in Sept 2015 and has been an experience of growth for me that I would have never guessed of how good it has been.
I started out with a goal of trying to heal myself and search for tools in the form of expression to help me grow. Also for a way to ensure I do not repeat the mistakes of my past. I knew I had to do something different as my end results in my life were the same. I was tired of the pain I was causing myself and I was exhausted. I was like a powerless ship drifting in the sea with no direction or even tools to fix the powerless ship even if I had a direction.
My second goal was to provide value to at least one person with the sharing of personal stories, observation of natures patterns and sharing others people's work. All of which had the goal of providing some of keys people all need to unlock their doors. By starting to unlock these doors will help unlock the greatness we all have inside ourselves.
I have met that goal of providing value for at least one and in fact there has been many more than one. Which now has lead to the creation of my first book that is based on these random thoughts. I want to thank a great couple of friends of mind right now. These two people that are married to each other were the first people that unlocked my first door in my journey of self discovery.
That occurred eight years ago with a visit to their home. I just finished a experience of another failed relationship that was causing me pain. I did not understand what was going on at the time. I had tried my best and thought it was going to last but it did not. With kindness and love they both made the suggestion that I read The Secret and The Monk That Sold His Ferrari.
I remember reading these two works and it was like reading something wrote in a different language. I could read the words but I was not able to understand the meanings. But it was a start of searching and trying to understand myself. At the time eight years ago my confidence was very low and did not see the greatness in me. This greatness in me was a foreign to me as the concept in the books I was reading.
I am so grateful that they saw the greatness in me and spent their time to freely give to me their experiences. Also the patience that they have in me and still have in me. I have stumbled so many times over the eight years, yet they always were there for me. Never once did they give up nor did they get frustrated to me. Yes they was conversations they had with me asking why I was making choices that were still causing me pain, yet there were there for me as my light house.
I know that I have not arrived at my potential and I never will as life demands me to keep improving and to always become better. Yet through this eight year journey has lead me to my next quest. The quest of creating a book that will go to print. That specific journey started with Todd of sharing my journey with you as thoughts turned to words on paper.
There are days where I feel tired and am at a low energy but never to the extent I was at before. My journey will continue to keep growing as a person and I will need to practice every journal entry that I have wrote over the last year and a half. For those of you reading this, you will also need to keep working on your greatness you will never be able to stop. You will gain momentum and you can rest a bit when your tired, but rest too long and your momentum will fade. When this happens so will your feelings of greatness.
One of my great friends shared a quote with me this morning that seems fitting to add here in this chapter and that is "if you need others to be your glue, you will always stay broken". Joyce Berkner. So many people have helped me and continue to help me and now I know that is ok. I had trained myself in the past that I can only rely on myself and to never let other in close to help me. I was scared that they would hurt me or want something in return for helping me. I have realized through the practice of surrounding myself with great people that will not happen. I have also realized I am not able to go where I need to go by myself and I need these great people to help me. Also to believe that it is ok to have others help me.
In one of the patterns in nature, there are several daily example of nature helping each other in the form of communication and cooperation. So why wouldn't I allow myself to let go and grow? That was a big moment of me realization of how small I actually am and to realize there is so much other there in life then I can not provide for myself. As I look back, it brings tears to my eyes to realize how broken I was and how many opportunities I have missed because of my internal brokenness combined with a ego.
Yet with the grace of nature my thoughts slowly started to change, slowly one by one I started to accomplish things in my life of positive growth that I thought I would never be able to do. I also wanted to bring up my parents and to acknowledge them and all the support they have given to me. Over the years I truly would not be able to be where I am right now without them They are not perfect people however they are perfect in how they are able to love me. Is that not the greatest gift one parent can give to your kids? No matter what the current choices your children make and even those choices make different levels of impact to our parents. At the end of the day their love remains in the way they know how to love you. So thank you mom and dad for showing me the gift of love. Although it took me a long while to understand and practice this concept.
I now know how to live with love in my life which is another key to unlocking your greatness and allows you through this love to be your true self. If you struggle from self esteem tell yourself everyday you love yourself even if you don't. By dong this, trick yourself into loving yourself. As for any growth to start and for you to start attracting great loving people you will have to start to actually love yourself. After time you will start to love yourself and you will start to feel the pain of growth.
We all have heard of growth pains when we were young and accept them as a fact of life. So then as well you need to be searching for positive growth tools and you will need to feel uncomfortable. This is the process of growth and you need to feel that pain to truly grow. You might think this is counterintuitive right now as I am suggesting you search for pain. But like the laws of nature when you were a child you experienced the pain of your physical body growing you will also need to feel that in you emotional self to grow.
As you start to love yourself you will be able to identify when emotional pain is in alignment to your greatness. Also you will be able to identity when that pain is coming from a negative place and by being yourself you will be able to take back your power. By taking back your power it will show you to remove yourself from those that are causing you this pain. As we always want to help other continue to do that and be the lighthouse to others. When they start taking too much from you allow yourself to be ok that you will not be able to be their lighthouse any longer. Like the young boy on the beach returning the starfish to the ocean and to life. Take comfort in knowing you are saving and providing value to others as you can by one conversation at a time.
As like my story here it has involved a lot of different people. Some people I don't personally know have helped be my lighthouse. So in you it is ok if you come into a life for a brief moment to create that value in them. The important thing is to work your sweet spot and daily make a difference. Firstly with yourself and them to every person you come in contact with. This is where you hard work will pay off and needs to be.
This is one of the most important parts of this book. This is the daily focus on your consistency. Like Henry Ford said your choices make you right. Positive or negative choices will create your consistent results. If you are not sure how to grow your positive circle of friends. Start by doing some volunteer work or join some kind of positive based focus group. As time passes you will start to identify positive people and they will help you. Don't be afraid to ask as you as you will get all you need. Be aware it will take time for this process to happen. Like the apple tree from a seed being planted to providing healthy apples to eat it will take time as well in this growth for you.
The laws of nature will apply to you and take comfort in knowing that up to this time you have done your best. However now comes the hard part to experience growth and to start to change. If you truly want your positive change to happen and you truly want to grow. The time is right now to start moving forward to the creation of the new you. You have to be your own glue, all the struggle you have gone through, all the heartache and pain. All the damage only you can start putting yourself together again.
You have lost your innocence as a child and the child like curiosity in you can be recreated and grown. From there you can feel the growth and it will start to happen. Compare that to the feeling of a cold morning being displaced by the warm rays of sunshine beating down on you. Allow this warmth or growth to fill you starting with your core. Your center, your inner child and allow that growth to radiate out so that it extends out to everyone you connect with.
To others that seek what you now have growing inside you, teach them the ways of finding their center. Be the person you were seeking, be the non-judgmental lighthouse for their growth. Remember as like you, they did the best they could at the time. You can be the moment where you provide that conversation spark to ignite their passion. To be the bridge to someone else to allow them to recognize their passion. For them to realize they are great and that their natural gift will provide them with everything they wish for.
Once that process of growth is starting in them and they have learned how to ride their own bike. Encourage them to stand up and to help others that are struggling. Ones that are a drift in the sea of life without tangible tools to move forward. Give freely and give your all to everyone you come across. When your tired push harder, dig deeper, as like physical growth that is where you real growth will be starting to take root.
As you grow and push yourself you will also experience a miracle. That miracle is when you are tired and push yourself out into the world. Out of your comfort zone you will randomly bump into people that will help you. With this help you will feel the energy grow which you will feel in the form of fuel. This miracle will surprise you at first and will not know what is happening. You may wonder why you feel a increase in energy. This is why - you have attracted what you need and when you needed it. The miracle will happen repetitively and it is truly never ending. You will accomplish so much more than you ever thought possible. Like the video game you will level up and your natural ability of greatness will continue to be unlocked. Unlike a video game there are no limits on how far you can go. The only time the game is over is when your not growing anymore.
So truly life is better than any video game will ever be. So to all those people that have told you no in regards to your natural passion of gifts. Start right now by one yes at a time and erase each and every single no that has grown in your life. By the power of your thoughts create all the no's into yes's. As you start with one it will come faster of you stepping towards your new reality. This reality of your new you at amazing energy.
In closing I truly thank you for spending your time reading this work of words that have been put to paper. I hope that you have received at least one thing to help provide a key for you to use for as long as you chose. I also extend my love to each and everyone of you that has spent the time reading this.
Until the next book, I shall talk to you soon, in the meantime climb your mountain and I can't wait to hear your stories of growth and accomplishment.
The End.
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