The 37th Chapter - Synchronicity and Balance

Nov 13/16

My thoughts turn to main stream popular movies - that although they are presented as works of fiction - I am wondering if all parts of these popular works are not all fiction?  Thinking of the universe and the energy it provides all forms of life.  Also the concept of synchronicity and how things that happen are not always random.

When I am lost in my own thoughts - I often will think the possible of what some people would think it is not possible.  I have realized that some of these fictional type thoughts and concepts, I have later watched being played out on the movie screen.  So I wonder how that is possible?  How can I think of concepts and later they are in new movies?  Is that an example of being in a collection of energy?  Time and space does it all happen at once?  So that is the reason concepts of the above are possible?  Does everything seem so large in regards to time and space?  Yet there is also a equal and opposite reaction that everything is actually very small?

I do not have the answers to these questions, I just have feelings and thoughts that I might know.  Picture a dust storm that is so dense you can not see what is on the other side of the storm.  Every once and a while the wind will momentary shift and you get a brief glimpse of what is on the other side.  It is almost like another quest of trying to understand what the universe is about.

So as I stated I do not know the answers but the time like these - when you can feel something is out there and you are wanting to learn and grow - to trust your past experience and your gut.  As long as your intent is one always based on kindness you will start to have answers being reviled to you.

The hope in this chapter that someone reads this general concept of being in the current of the universe and be the seed of something to grow and build on the start of this thought.  Like any quest of becoming a master in whatever activity - the quest always starts with a thought and a beginning first step.  Like a young child learning how to walk - rely on your instincts and have faith you will be provided with the knowledge and energy exactly when you need it.

Do not be discouraged if you see someone else appear to be learning faster than you - the energy to become a master is always the same and you are only seeing a part of what others may or may not be doing.  Focus on you and what you truly want to master.  With time, as long as you stay true to you and remain real - keeping the human ego out of your growth - the ego will not allow you to fully grow and will eliminate some great experiences that were meant for you.  You may realize this and have enough time to lower the impact of your ego and still enjoy rich experiences.  Usually though you will realize it when it is too late.  These rich experiences full of the fuel of life that were meant for you will be lost forever and you will not be able to go back in time.

So perhaps goodness is all around us and even shown to us - in the form of fictional works - however it is people that are based on goodness are showing the entire world some of the universe keys.  It is up to us to learn from some of the key messages that you relate too.  Start by asking how come I noticed this concept and how can I start replicating that pattern in my life?

Be open and honest to the thoughts and ideas given to you freely and see how they can be applied to your life.  Once you successfully apply them in your life - use the pay it forward concept and share with others to help them grown their life.

Keep repeating this pattern and remember the key is to freely give with no expectation in return.  As what you received in return as gifts is directly related to wanting nothing in return from acts of teaching others.

The 36th Chapter - Who is Your Mentor

Nov 12/16

To my great friend from Tomahawk - you know who you are.  My thoughts turn to how you have been a positive role model and mentor to me.  Our back grounds are quite similar and even to being single parents and raising our kids without a partner.

As the years go by the constant quest of him living a life that shows great and positive traits.  It is one thing to say great words but completely another of how your actions reflect those words or not.  Depending how they align up determines the depth of a person you are.  Some that might not know him well might think he is a micro manager or maybe he has an agenda.  The passion and energy he gives off is always one of excellence combined with determination to succeed in whatever he does.  Whether if is from raising his son to winning a trophy in a large car show.

The attention to detail he is able to have is incredible and by being able to do that - he is able to bring into his life success.  He has several different passions and each one of them he is able to recall in great detail of each characteristics  of all them.   That success is shown in his relationships to nice tangible assets he is also able to enjoy.  The common theme in his life is that he works very hard at everything he does and he is provided with positive gifts because of that hard work.

This ties into another example of the power of ones thoughts and intentions will provide you with what you truly seek.  As my journey of this life continues I am amazed of how easy it is to create my reality.  Of course I experience struggles and frustrations but when I started to align up to my gut feelings and to what I truly wanted - I started to experience a shift in the richness of positive feelings that I have in my life.

Going from a place of confusion and being unsettle  to a place of quiet confidence has been a fantastic living experience.  I am learning it is not about the tangible wealth around you and what you may have or would like to have.  It is truly how rich you are inside - the richness of your internal house is a key to living a full and diverse life.

So I thank you my friend of being that constant example of positive strength and providing me with a way of being able to model my behavior.  Thank you for coming into my life and showing me some life skills of what I did not know before.

The 35th Chapter - Allow Great Gifts to Grow You

Nov 10/16

I feel compelled to write this story - I can feel the excitement grow as I recall events that has happened over the last few days.  So a total of three things I noticed happened over a period of three days.

So it was a normal Tuesday for me at the office when a few random events happened that I had no idea what would be the start of a chain of amazing events.   I would normally stay late at the office in this location however a few hours later on this day there was some changes and I ended up going on a plane to another office.  I remember clearly getting to the security line - Immediately realizing there was a large line up.  I looked at the time and knew I would barely have enough time to catch my flight.  The old me would have suddenly became stressed, today though, not one ouch of stress came over my body, in fact the opposite.  I felt calm and knew I would get through security in time to make my flight.

 At the start of the of the line, a man in his mid 40's asked if he could by-pass the line because he was late and was concerned that he would miss his flight.  The security officers told him no and that he would have to wait like the rest of the travelers.  He then waited in line until the next corner of the line and ask another officer if he could by-pass the line while using the same story as his first attempt.  This time he was successful and by-passed the line,   It would have been approximately 10-15 minutes later when I made it through security and I look over and the same man was clearing at the same time as I was.

It created a moment in me to pause and reflect - I could visually observe he was worried about time, and rightly so, as I am sure he had a important destination to go to and did not want to miss it.  The point is accepting the flow of every moment was meant to happen and you will receive all you need, when you need it.  You will get to where you need to go.

Which leads me to the start of my second experience and that was - I walked right from security to the boarding gate, produced my travel documentation and walked onto the plane with no stress at all.  With the memory of the stressed out middle age man in my mind.

I get to my assigned seat and I am waiting for a older lady that is standing beside my seat and she politely waved me by her and I said that is my seat beside you.  So she proceeded to put several bags away in the overhead compartment and under the seat.  All the while politely saying sorry for taking so much time,  I responded by saying there is no rush and it is all good.  I got seated and buckled in and then another lady came and hold her she was in her seat.  Now keep in mind it took sometime for us to sit down, she polity responded of I am sorry and I will move.  The lady in the aisle said no problem and I will just take your seat and politely laughed.

So picture this, I am not supposed to be on that plane, the lady was in the wrong seat, yet for a brief moment in time I was given the gift of her company.  Immediately I could recognize her sensitivity, intelligence and physic ability.   We shared several stories back and forth about our life's experience and how we now embrace the gifts we both have, but reflected on a time where our surroundings suggested that we do not embrace who we really are.  We both have lived most of our life not being true to who we are and finally now we are able to live life truly in the moment.

To you on the plane that I had this conversation with - you will know who you are if you read these words.  I can not express enough words of how grateful I am, as you helped build more confidence in me by a simple conversation of sharing.  A random event that truly turned out to be a moment that I will never forget.  Thank you so much Ms. K.  I am truly grateful for you and what how much you had given me in such a short time.

The third event was on the return flight home three days later.  Once again there was someone seated in the aisle seat.  This time a man in he late 20's with several tattoos all over his neck and arms.  I asked to get let in beside him as my seat was at the window.  Immediately I was struck by how nice of a person he was.  We started a fun conversation and when the plane was getting ready to take off, I put my head against the window to have a brief rest, even though I could feel he still wanted to talk to me.  At the time I felt I did not have the energy  to communicate with him, as it was early in the morning and had a long day ahead of me combined with the fact of a long few days of work.

As we started our descent we started the conversation just like it never stopped, it flowed so easy and way up-lifting.  We soon discovered we had a lot of things in common with our lives and he invited me to look him up the next time I was in the city.  I said for sure - exchanged details and parted ways - once again this moment provided me with strength that I am on the correct path for me.

As I am walking in the airport, I noticed a lady walking towards me that was seated in front of me on the plane.  She came up and said excuse me but I couldn't help but overhear your guys conversation and how incredible and positive it was.  I wanted to say thank you to you and express my appreciation of that conversation.  I felt she wanted to say more, however at that time I had never experience a moment like this and I was actually speechless and felt my energy become unfocused as I was so surprised.  I then felt guilty as I almost missed an opportunity to make a positive difference in someone's life - even though I knew I should have talked more.

If I  chose to ignore my insights I would have  missed the experience of something great that will stay with me forever.  Pay attention to what the universe is providing you - all is what you need.  This three day trip provided me with more energy and support to follow my feeling and insight.  As I asked not long ago to provide me some more confidence that I was indeed on the right track for my life.  As I wanted this I have been provided with more support than I ever expected to receive.

Love yourself and by doing so the universe will love you fully with all it's energy - yes it is for you and you are great.

The 34th Chapter - Your Psychic Ability

Nov 6/16

I would like to share a very personal painful yet a positive growth story.  This experience has provided me strength on determining who I am.  I think we all have many different special and unique abilities.  One of my gifts that  has been provided to me is that I have a type of psychic ability.  This type of psychic ability comes in a way  that picks up thoughts and emotions from other people in a form of energy.   For some reason I am able to "just know" that when I pick up that energy I have the ability to decode it and to be able to know what a person is truly thinking.   This can happen from thousands of miles away as well.

Some of you might think this is a great gift - I will agree with you when the energy is positive coming from a person however when it is the opposite it is very uncomfortable and sometimes very painful.  Depending of the intensity of  the energy being directed and duration, it is times like these where I wish I did not have this gift.  When this intensity would become too strong I would start to change myself to survive.  There has been times in my life where I would shut down this gift, however that was only temporary and who I am would always come back to the surface.

The process to decode this energy varies in regards to time, sometimes it will take a few seconds or it might take days to understand.  When it takes days to understand it will start with an unsettling feeling that will cause side effects of slight moodiness in me and in extreme cases it will cause me to lose sleep.  I will be awaken out of a deep sleep and immediately my thoughts will turn to that negative energy that has been getting directed my way.   At this point keep in mind I am not able to know why though this is happening.  So as this process or min journey progresses to determine the why is reached, this may happen several times and I can feel my energy start to lower.  It feels like a test to see if I am able to become healthy - it is almost like a seesaw action and a struggle of emotional dominance in two beings.

So finally this morning the answer came clearly to me on this latest quest.  I completely know what has been going on now for the past three days.  Now that this has happened it feels like a sense of relief has wrapped me like a warm blanket on a cold rainy day.  So to add to this struggle is that my nature is one of kindness and understanding.  I am always looking for the good and usually never be able to see the ugliness that is around me sometimes.  One that would normally always extend a helping hand to people that need it in a emotional context.  Which I would encourage you too, if you have the psychic ability and this self awareness of a gift.

The caution I would like to discuss - is when you do this it will give a part of your emotional energy to someone else.   As long if both of your intent is positive  that energy you extend will then be somewhat returned to you when you need it.  However if your intent is to be positive and the others is not - you will slowly start losing your power or strength of your psychic energy to the other person.  No matter how hard you try and provide them the energy they need you will never be able to fill their void - this can be compared to a emotional black hole.

So even though in this example I felt compelled to reach out and provide the energy that was getting asked of me.  I did not and the result has been I can feel settled, warm and at peace knowing I made the decision for me and did not provide the energy to someone else.  During this exchange the intent from the other person was to by me experience emotional pain then would be provided pleasure.  I hope this is explaining this concept in a way that makes sense to those that also suffer or benefit  from this gift.

Now to some reading this chapter there might be some thinking I am crazy and these thoughts are completely off base.  That is totally OK - however to those that have read these words and you can relate, you also know it is true.  My whole intent is to heal myself with a hope that at least one other person will feel value from reading these words.  My intent is based solely on kindness and compassion with every interaction to provide value.  A quest to build a beautiful masterpiece of a internal emotional house for me.  As time fades on the recent completion of this past min journey it feel better and better.

The take away was ever though it would have been easier to reach out in a way that was non-psychic based at that period of three days in time - I resisted.  I followed my path and what felt was the correct choices for me.  It has provided me strength to know I am still on the path that was wrote for me by me.  I can feel confidence come to me in the way it was prior to the last few days and I am truly grateful I was able to overcome this quest.

I am in the moment now looking forward to the next positive adventure to come my way.  Thank you for sharing your time reading about a personal story.

The 33rd Chapter - Allowing Randomness to Provide Value to You

Nov 5/16

As I am sitting in a large coffee chain location - I find my thoughts are all over the place and random.  I was going to write about a different topic - however this day has been one that had not turned out as planned.  Totally in a good way and filled with which appears to be random opportunities, that have came across my path today and they have altered my reality in a significant way.  Sometimes I start to question to why today seems and feels so different - which I would like to share.

I met up with an old colleague that I have not spent time with in a long while.  This person and I were also waiting for results on a submitted proposal to a third party for over four months now.  So what appears to be a random lunch meeting - maybe it was not?  One of the items discussed was I communicated I still have not heard any feedback from the proposal.  While I was sitting over lunch and having a conversation - I could feel my phone going off a few times.  As I related to in some of my previous chapters - time is truly a great gift - and to give your time to someone else, one should respect that person and this respect should also come back to you.  One way of ensuring I do that - I will ignore my cell phone while I am having a conversation with someone else.  As I feel it is disrespectful and it is another form of allowing interruptions with the precious time you are spending with someone.

After lunch was over and we had parted ways - I did check my phone and one of the messages waiting to be read was an email communicated that the proposal was accepted.  ( another colleague taught me the importance of putting aside my cell phone.  In my past as I was talking with people if my phone would go off, I will switch my attention to my phone and ignore the person.  He respectfully commented that perhaps I should mange my time in a different way - which I am so grateful he brought this up to me.  I also wanted to point out - the message was waiting - it was not going anywhere and that news would have no real impact waiting to read it. )  So all the months of waiting and at that particular moment news was received - was that random?  Ultimately it is you that had to decide that.  However my view is that it was not random and what that moment provided me was further fuel to propel me along the current path I am on.   The choices I am making are the ones that are aligning up to the path written by me for me.

This has also turned my thoughts to balance and the importance to have that.  It is important to allow life's randomness to provide you some kind of direction.  Like floating with a current in a stream - however there are times when the moment is right that you need to make some decisions and to not always allow the current to fully direct your life.  An example of that is your river might have a fork in it and  if you stay in it, it will take you over a deadly water fall.  Your survival instinct will kick in and intuitively you will know to paddle out of that current and go move your canoe to the opposite fork to avoid the fatal water falls.   By doing this it will allows you to continue to grow and be provided with the experience of a new part of the river.

When you are struggling the most of what direction you should take in life, take a breath, pause a moment and your inner self will provide you the direction.  You will have the knowledge in you to avoid the deadly forks and follow the ones that provide positive growth.

Use the natural energy around you to increase the joy of your life's journey.   The healthy river currents are waiting for you to propel you to your greatness.

The 32nd Chapter - Find Your Clarity

Oct 31/16

A moment of reflection to share.  It all ties into when you start making the small choices that align up with what you truly want.  It is almost magical that you will start to have more clarity - you will start feeling and knowing what your next steps need to be.  If these next steps are in alignment of what you truly want you should be starting to feel like your gaining energy from these choices or moments of clarity.

The next step will be to have the strength to make these changes.  In general we are typically comfortable in our current reality and although we may not be completely happy with ourselves or our current status quo.  We will remain there like the frog in the slowly warming water.  We know what to expect and that will provide us with a sense of stability of a known future.  However if your feeling a sense of being unsettled it is likely you might need to make some changes.  These changes can be small ones, like going for a walk or call a friend and share some new positive ideas or thoughts.  Or it might be a lot bigger like changing a relationship or even maybe a job or start a new career.

When you take a moment to think and feel you will know what choices you have to make.  Also when you decide to make a change to increase the value of how you feel in life.  Remember this journey of life is now new to you and you will make mistakes and you will want to go back to the before period.  However if you know your making the correct choices stay on this path of the new journey.

So specifically my reflection is - over the past year or so, I have made a few choices I knew and now know were not the correct ones for me.  As time went on of me making the incorrect choices I noticed some of my close friends drifted away and I did not spend as much time with family as I should have.  On a deeper level, over time, I slowly lost my clarity of who I am and what I truly wanted to accomplish in life.  It was as if I was lost in a cloud or was observing someone else's life and not my own.  My passion and uniqueness was discounted over that year by myself and my biggest learning from that year was not to allow others alter my own person of being.  Allowing my confidence to slip away to the put of was just left with going through the action of life and not truly living life.

If you are starting to feel this way or you can relate to some of this chapter and you are searching for some people and clarity.  I hope these words have provided some comfort and a start of how to tangible way to make some changes in your life.  Like the weight loss programs I wrote about earlier, start looking deeper into the whys of what is not working for you.  Once you have determined the why's you will be able to identify where you need to go.  It shouldn't matter what your spiritual or religious beliefs are, you are indeed allowed to feel joy in your life and that your quest is up to you to fill the the rest of the pages.

You have all the answers you need inside of you for you - the key is to find tools, reading, other positive people to talk to provide ways for you to unlock your next steps.  All of these resources come to you when you need them and the true sources of this gift,  will give it to you freely and as much as you need.  You will also start to have the sense the new choices you are making are the correct ones for you.

Start slowly with this exercise and only make decisions when you know your ready.  With anything you practice it will become easier and quicker to receive the clarity you are looking for.

Enjoy the beginnings of the new positive feelings of your hard work you have created.

The 31st Chapter - Find Your Passion - Repeat Your Passion

Oct 30/16

I feel compelled to write down some random thoughts.  As I am sitting here writing I can feel energy and thoughts coming from other people.  Also having the overwhelming feeling I know I am meant to be here right now and writing.  An old acquaintance walked into the store I am sitting in and the conversation turned to them going to Hawaii and specifically to the island of Oahu.  What a feeling to be aware and to be alive - the feeling of growth and confidence combined.

When I first started creating these writings my primary goal was to put pen to paper and use these words to heal and grow myself.  A moment of reflection - it has been just over a year that I started writing down my thoughts.  This started very slowly at first and usually quite brief in length.  Now I find myself wanting to create more and would like to spend more time doing it.

The meaning of using some kind of art or a creative process as an outlet is in full force in me.  Support to anyone that might stumble across this writing is - yes go for it, do what you need to do.  I can also feel as you read these words - these words were created just for you - it is almost overwhelming but strangely comforting.  Isn't life amazing?  How is this possible right now of what just happened?  It's almost like magic or a quest or a new leg of your journey has started?

Enjoy the moment and experiences and let your inner small child become alive again.  Like  Picasso said "every child is born a artist - the trick is to not forget that when you grow older".  Take a moment now and just feel - write down your thoughts.  Quiet your mind and whatever comes to you - allow time to write it down - there is a purpose to why that thought just came to you right now.  Use these thoughts, even if it is only one to start with.  Start creating your strong foundation which will enable you to be strong and withstand life's challenges.  Not only stand strong with these challenges but you will be able to grow and evolve during these storms.

 As you practice this you will start to find joy and strength even with things are difficult for you. When you have moments of uncomfortable emotions - gather strength from knowing the fact that these moments will pass.  Overtime as you recognize these moments your strong foundation will allow you to move through these uncomfortable moments.  These moments will happen less and less and when that starts to happen - share your experiences and your growth/accomplishments to others. With the intent to help and pay it forward (always remain kind and truthful to you and others around you)  You will make a positive impact in someone else - now isn't that powerful?  You could be the first being a duck sees.  How is the positive impact of that even measurable?

Things like this makes me feel - wow life is really amazing!!!!! and worth living.

Enjoy - Practice - Be Great and repeat.