The 34th Chapter - Your Psychic Ability

Nov 6/16

I would like to share a very personal painful yet a positive growth story.  This experience has provided me strength on determining who I am.  I think we all have many different special and unique abilities.  One of my gifts that  has been provided to me is that I have a type of psychic ability.  This type of psychic ability comes in a way  that picks up thoughts and emotions from other people in a form of energy.   For some reason I am able to "just know" that when I pick up that energy I have the ability to decode it and to be able to know what a person is truly thinking.   This can happen from thousands of miles away as well.

Some of you might think this is a great gift - I will agree with you when the energy is positive coming from a person however when it is the opposite it is very uncomfortable and sometimes very painful.  Depending of the intensity of  the energy being directed and duration, it is times like these where I wish I did not have this gift.  When this intensity would become too strong I would start to change myself to survive.  There has been times in my life where I would shut down this gift, however that was only temporary and who I am would always come back to the surface.

The process to decode this energy varies in regards to time, sometimes it will take a few seconds or it might take days to understand.  When it takes days to understand it will start with an unsettling feeling that will cause side effects of slight moodiness in me and in extreme cases it will cause me to lose sleep.  I will be awaken out of a deep sleep and immediately my thoughts will turn to that negative energy that has been getting directed my way.   At this point keep in mind I am not able to know why though this is happening.  So as this process or min journey progresses to determine the why is reached, this may happen several times and I can feel my energy start to lower.  It feels like a test to see if I am able to become healthy - it is almost like a seesaw action and a struggle of emotional dominance in two beings.

So finally this morning the answer came clearly to me on this latest quest.  I completely know what has been going on now for the past three days.  Now that this has happened it feels like a sense of relief has wrapped me like a warm blanket on a cold rainy day.  So to add to this struggle is that my nature is one of kindness and understanding.  I am always looking for the good and usually never be able to see the ugliness that is around me sometimes.  One that would normally always extend a helping hand to people that need it in a emotional context.  Which I would encourage you too, if you have the psychic ability and this self awareness of a gift.

The caution I would like to discuss - is when you do this it will give a part of your emotional energy to someone else.   As long if both of your intent is positive  that energy you extend will then be somewhat returned to you when you need it.  However if your intent is to be positive and the others is not - you will slowly start losing your power or strength of your psychic energy to the other person.  No matter how hard you try and provide them the energy they need you will never be able to fill their void - this can be compared to a emotional black hole.

So even though in this example I felt compelled to reach out and provide the energy that was getting asked of me.  I did not and the result has been I can feel settled, warm and at peace knowing I made the decision for me and did not provide the energy to someone else.  During this exchange the intent from the other person was to by me experience emotional pain then would be provided pleasure.  I hope this is explaining this concept in a way that makes sense to those that also suffer or benefit  from this gift.

Now to some reading this chapter there might be some thinking I am crazy and these thoughts are completely off base.  That is totally OK - however to those that have read these words and you can relate, you also know it is true.  My whole intent is to heal myself with a hope that at least one other person will feel value from reading these words.  My intent is based solely on kindness and compassion with every interaction to provide value.  A quest to build a beautiful masterpiece of a internal emotional house for me.  As time fades on the recent completion of this past min journey it feel better and better.

The take away was ever though it would have been easier to reach out in a way that was non-psychic based at that period of three days in time - I resisted.  I followed my path and what felt was the correct choices for me.  It has provided me strength to know I am still on the path that was wrote for me by me.  I can feel confidence come to me in the way it was prior to the last few days and I am truly grateful I was able to overcome this quest.

I am in the moment now looking forward to the next positive adventure to come my way.  Thank you for sharing your time reading about a personal story.