Aug 17/16
So I woke up on a beautiful Saturday summer morning, with no plans other than I did not want to waste a precious summer day. I decided to go on a random last minute road trip to the majestic western Canadian mountains. After a long day's motorbike ride I ended up decided to see if I could find a room for the night at a town buried deep in the mountains. I was lucky enough to finally find a room for night, as many people were already there and most of the rooms were already taken.
As I settled down on a park bench, to enjoy the evening air, next to a busy street filled with all kinds of traffic. Only a brief moment had passed when a group of people wondered by and in that group I recognized a person I knew. After a brief conversation with that person we parted ways and a comment spoken by them remained with me....."I love coming to visit here and the mountains but my partner would rather not.....so because of this I rarely come here". Once again this small comment made a large impact with me, in the fact this person is making some choices to deny what they find can bring joy to their life.
So some of your reading this might think I am suggesting to not ever compromise in a relationship or to the extreme thought, to not even have a relationship. To be clear I am not suggesting that at all and my point is to be mindful of the choices you make in your life. The term death of a thousand cuts comes to mind, meaning in your intimate relationships, when you slowly start to make decision to compromise with your partner you may slowly start to loose who you are as a amazing person. Before you realize it you make wake up one day not been able to recognize the person you are right now in the moment.
If you are daily mindful of your choices and the impact of those choices are on your life, you can make adjustments and focus on you and your emotional health. All before it is either too late in losing yourself or perhaps losing someone that is very close to you. When so much damage has been now created, without you realizing it, and it seems impossible to repair and see a future together with that person or knowing the clarity of you.
This moment on the park bench has caused me to reflect of some of my failed relationships and the pain my choices have caused myself and others around me. As I was not mindful of my small choices I made and I did loose myself. When the re-building would start over again on my foundation and my search to find joy again in the life around me. I needed fuel to carry on and small moments of joy, ones like in this chapter helped me on my long road to recovery.
Once you start re-building it will feel at times that this process will take a long time and sometimes might start to feel like a marathon run with no training at all. All the while it seems like your going up-hill and path under your feet is moving backwards and just about when your starting to feel unsure of your path - you will be provided with an experience that will energize you and propel you forward.
As you start to feel a positive change in you, the moments of "marathon running" will start to get easier and you will start to feel the periods been lost become shorter while you will feel the periods of having energy becoming longer.
This will be on your step of alignment and feeling in-sync of who you are and having the energy flow around you. Picture riding a canoe in the mountains in the sweet spot of the current and going the same direction of the current. You surge ahead with each paddle stroke plus at a combined rate of the flowing current. The energy to go the same distance is vastly lower than if you were doing it all alone.
Enjoy your efforts and the positive energy of alignment.
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